Hum not exactly sure where I’m going to go with this tonight. I just got off the phone with my sis whom I adoreJ. Gawd we just got off of a three hour talk… now shit! That’s some talking. I learned many new things about her that surprisingly enough didn’t know, considering that we are best friends. It’s an honor to have the family I do here for me, considering what’s been going on in the past few months. Granted most don’t know much of what has been going on in my life… and it’s probably better that way. The less people know the less there is to be talked about. Trust me, I like to stay far away from the gay rings of drama as you can tell.

I’m happy to say for the past few weeks I haven’t done much of anything, just sit back and reflect on my life. The past year couple years. Actually at times quite depressing, but I’m just happy to finally be over it all. Good times and bad, don’t know how else to put it… just unhappy the way everything ended up. But I guess I didn’t have a say in that, but the past is where it is… behind us all. I can’t say that I wish things were better, because without them being the way that they are/were there are a lot of lessons I wouldn’t have been able to learn. The only bad thing about it all, is that despite what has happened and what has been learned, I still feel bad for a few people around me that are authentically very good guys. They have taken out a lot of time, effort, money, whatever you can think of… to try and “win me over” if you will. But I just can’t let someone else in right now. It sucks that it has to be that way, but at this point in my life I just can’t have a relationship or someone around me like that. It’s hard to explain, and for the most part I just don’t think anyone’s good enough to be with me right now. Not that by any means I’m trying to be cocky or self centered. It’s just after experiencing what I have, and the work I put into what once was, I just can’t waste my time on it. I just hope you guys can understand. And I’m sure you can cause we’ve talked about it, you know who you areJ. Well I think that’s enough about that direct subject.

So Anywho I’m weighing out a lot of options now which is good for me, because they all allow me to get my mind on a lot of things that I’ve been dwelling on for a while now. It has just been really hard trying to decide what to do. I have a couple options that require that I leave the state completely for a year minimum. While others just require a lot of time. Both I’m sure will be very good for me. It’s a nice change in the direction from where my life was leading to where it can go. I’m proud and happy that I have been given the opportunity to do so many things that I was held away from doing when I was originally offered them, grateful indeed.

So hopefully my life will just pull itself in the right direction, because deciding at this point has become kind of overwhelming to be blandly honest. So with that being out in the open… Hopefully no one takes anything personally, as though I’m leaving them. But what matters now is what makes me happy, and what will pull my life on top, because I’m no longer going to live in someone else’s shadows. So don’t take it personal, because this is something I have to do for myself, take that into consideration… I’m looking out for my best interests, what others (i.e. friends) should be doing for me anyway.

Well for the time being I must go. Tired have a lot to do in the next few days. But I love ya all. Keep in touch and message me back. TTYL kiddoz

~Drew

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  So this was weird as fuck! lol i blew a tire on the high way..... managed to get my drunk ass off the highway > > > change the tire > > > ended up breakin off a lug nut > > > instead of takin it off. dunno how the hell i made it home. lol out of all irony i changed it at a fire station right across from a police station.... and didn't get caught! lol ttyl! HAPPY THANX GIVIN!!!!!

Well home again home again for the millionth time. Hopefully very soon it won’t have to be home again. Anywho I’m back for court tomorrow morning. Guess I’ll be deciding on what I want to take with me wherever and what I don’t want. Hum decisions decisions…  Then after that I guess I’m staying for the weekend. I have something to do for Halloween and also supposed to do a few other things throughout the weekend. Then after that I’m hoping there won’t be any other distractions on my way out Tuesday.

Let’s see. Other than that I went to the Trina concert the other Friday, and it was kick ass! It was my birthday present I got from my sister. Really enjoyed it, plus I got to be VIP so that made it even better. There are a few pix below of the concert.

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My sister & her husband

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For any of the other pix of the concert just go to the link below... other wise these are pretty much the better ones J 

Trina's Concert Pix